I am ok
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Posted:Mar 2, 2011 10:35 am
Last Updated:Oct 14, 2012 9:47 am
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I hate sex. I found out that if i just loved and did not have any sex relation with men, i would always be ok.
Being in bed with a man always brings me illusions about the close-knit between us. But after that moment, the fact that love is still too far for me to reach often makes me feel bad.
I really hate it.
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Cannot cry
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Posted:Feb 28, 2011 6:23 am
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:37 am
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How can I cry when it was my fault?
How can I cry when i did not really know what made me cry?
Mistakes follow mistakes 
I am good at making mistakes.
Things will be fine someday.
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Missing
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Posted:Feb 17, 2011 10:14 pm
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:33 am
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Missing is just an emotion. And this emotion will disappear when the times goes by.
Sometimes I feel annoyed with myself for my habit of expressing all feeling and thoughts. Things might be better if I know how to keep the feeling for myself.
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I sneer myself
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Posted:Feb 13, 2011 8:38 am
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:34 am
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I am sitting in front of the computer and wondering i should cry or laugh.
I was going to enjoy the sweet then found something bitter.
My dear, you made me feel so sad.
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Before a new lunar year
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Posted:Feb 1, 2011 4:01 am
Last Updated:May 30, 2024 4:7 am
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I write many words and then I delete them.
It's hard to say all the thoughts. I just understand that I am feeling very sad. Maybe it's just the sadness because of being thoughful at the last day of the year.
I get stuck now, do not know what to do next
Now I have only one wish. I wish I had no feeling.
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Changes
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Posted:Aug 17, 2010 4:07 am
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:35 am
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I said everything ended up. My friend asked "How do you feel?"
No feeling, truely. Everything is foreseen. So saying goodbye was not too difficult to do and this left no emotion, except some dreams at night. Dreaming about him.
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June 4th
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Posted:Jun 4, 2010 10:09 am
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:35 am
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Thanks for your comments
I now work from 12 to 16 hours a day. Thus, no time for stupid things. Life is now working and working.
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How can tell
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Posted:Jun 2, 2010 5:42 am
Last Updated:Jun 4, 2010 9:58 am
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I cannot share how I feel now with my friends, even my best friend. How can I say to them? That I had a boy friend who is married? and that he is incapable to divorce though he said he and her now just share a house, and no love.
No, I cannot tell any of my friend. Because I did the wrong thing at the beginning.
Now, all I can do is feeling sad and hope the time can take the sadness away.
Wait and wait.
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So sad
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Posted:May 30, 2010 9:39 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2010 5:36 am
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Feeling empty, sad.
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New
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Posted:Apr 23, 2010 5:00 am
Last Updated:Apr 13, 2012 6:36 am
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It's really funny, after two months of unemployment, no sooner had I got a new job than there were some other offers coming at the same time. All of them are good jobs, but I can only take one. I wonder if there are still chances for me if I cannot pass the probation period.
Actually, I have picked up two of them, one at day time and one at evening time. I hope I will be okay with them.
Without love, heart still beats, without money, life will end up
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No title
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Posted:Apr 4, 2010 9:12 am
Last Updated:Feb 1, 2011 4:03 am
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It has been raining for 2 days. I get a flu and sneeze, so does he. But he still come over as he promised.s
He is tired, I am tired, too. But we still have sex because I think he wants and he thinks I want. As he not strong enough, he just lies and enjoys, and I am the active one. He comes out, and I feel nothing, but more tired.
Now, when he has gone back home, and must be sleeping. Just me lie here lonely and feel empty. I now regret that I am the active one, because I don't desire sex enough to do that, I just want to please him while He does not even hug me. I know this is because he is tired today, he is sick. Usually, he often shows his love by hugging me tightly, having sex sometimes very gently, sometimes very strongly.
And the meeting today is really insignificant as he rushes home to be in time and I have dinner out alone.
Really sad. Perhaps I will stop having sex with him for 2 weeks. I need time to think about us, how to continue or how to stop.
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Missing title
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Posted:Mar 31, 2010 10:25 am
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2010 8:53 am
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Thanks for your sympathetic comments. I chose the wrong one and now I have to deal with my troubles. It's all my fault
I quit my job, and now I can think about moving to another city. Perhaps, Sai Gon is a good place to go.
To start at this time of life, is it too late?
Today I found out a very interesting thing to do, learning French. I spent 4 hours in the afternoon reading books, and I feel happy to know something about another language.
For such a long time, I don't really like anything, and now, I do. To me, this is good news.
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