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Musings of a secret nympho
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Musings of a secret nympho Anyone who knows me knows I love sex..but its never a topic of conversation..always other 'normal' things to talk about then sex..but why am I so sex starved?..I don't get it really..I always thot men were supposed to be that kind of person..Then again I was raised in a very strict religion..UPC..My dad was a well known minister..when he passed away My mom became the new pastor of his church..we always and i mean ALWAYS had to be on our best behavior as the preachers ..my twin sister and I had it the worst as women did..we were not allowed to wear pants, makeup, jewellery, or cut our hair..even one sexual thot would send u to a palce u did NOT wanna go..it was all eternal hell and damnation..scary stuff for us growing up..we spent hours learing to sit and be quiet in church, to obey our elders..to be "meek & quiet" and obey the men as they were the head of the household in life so 2 speak..I'm sure this is why I do not want control in the bedroom..And my dad passed away at such a young age being robbed of a father im sure is why I will be forever searching for the father figure in my life and tend to lean towards older mature and protective caring experienced men..even so I accept that..I could always put on the appearance people want to see in public..the quiet, caring, sensitive, sweet lady..but I guess that is why I tend to let loose in the bedroom the kinkier the better..I was 7 when my dad caught me pleasuring myself and scolded me..so it was a high sex drive i've always lived with and couldnt seem to control even tho I wanted to as I wanted to avoid an eternity in hell as I was taught ..but I never could..When I went out on my own I still kept living the way I was taught..was a virgin til i was 21 as u can see I'm only 24 now..but we got a computer and it changed things for me..men wanted to chat things always went towards sex and I started to give in to my desires..my first orgasm came when I bought a new toothbrush the motorized kind..Crest spinbrush..i was horny one nite..and well I tried using it on my pussy, holding the spinning head agasint my clit,when it touched the nerve endings in my body went crazy it was so intense and all i can say was wow..i've never gone back since..men havent always treated me right ..the first guy to actually buy me even a coffee I dint even know what to say i was actually just stunned lol..and I was raised to make the relationship work no matter what as God would want so I put up with more then i should have..so needless to say I do have trust issues with men..but I love sex with a horny man..it was worth it..to change my life and leave my religion that i felt was treating my desires as a sin and enter a world where i wasnt the only one and I could freely enjoy pleasure..Thats not to say iI'm not looking for love or a relationship I'd prefer that but only with a man who valued sex as much as me!..until then.. I can't give up sex I dont think I ever could even when I get old lol..I think about it as much even more then men Im sure..I spend all day caring for my beautiful babay boys..but I am constantly thinking about sex..I'll be walking down the aisle at sobeys and see a guy and think I wonder how big his cock is..I'd pass a man in walmart and think I bet hed be awesome in bed..sometimes it takes everything in me not to just go up to a guy I'm passing in the mall and say "lets go fuck right now!" ..raised the proper lady..I guess I'm a slutty nympho at heart..Men woudlnt know it when they see me, people never think that about me when we say hi, I guess what goes on inside your mind..noone knows and mabe its better that way as Id give some people a heartattack im sure..and make others keep thier distance as its a pretty tabboo subject in public..but that just makes it even more naughty and fun LOL..I'm all for romance..dinners out, a man who can bring me a tims capp just to make me feel good..a friend and a lover..but SEX will always be number one on this sex craved single moms mind!..is there a man who can be both..and fulfill all my needs..sexually and otherwise?  |
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10/12/2009 2:45 pm |
Wow, I can relate to some of your upbringing, namely the guilt about sex and whatnot. But, as someone who left all that behind about 10 years ago, I can definitely say that you're better off in your new life. In other words, don't feel even the slightest bit of guilt, there is no need. Enjoy your bodies and all the pleasures it can bring you - if there is a god, I presume that's why he gave us orgasms!
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